Back to School
Back to school and back into the rhythm of early risings and mornings to myself...
I thought it would be more welcome than this. I really thought I couldn't wait for school to start, to have some alone time. I was wrong. I'm kinda sad about it. I know I complained, but it was really nice having Blaine around this summer. I've watched her grow so much and evolve over the past few months, that I'm really starting to like her. Not just love my daughter, but to really LIKE her.
The start of the school year comes with the usual trappings. I wrote of my woes about shopping for clothes and the distain I felt for doing it. But now I know why I hated it so much. Sizes are arbitrary. They have NO RELEVENT MEANING WHATSOEVER. I think the fashion industry does this on purpose to keep people shopping, to make it a never ending saga. Of all the items of clothing purchased for Blaine this year, there is not one common size. We have everything from XS to XLG and we puchased pants in a myriad of sizes, from girls sizes 12 to 14, junior sizes 1 to 3/4, and even a skirt in little girls size 7/8. WTF?
Blaine tried out for the volleyball team. I didn't want to crush her hopes, but I knew she would be cut. Not much call for a 4'10" spiker. At try-outs, the other girls towered over her. But she was a trooper, she stuck it out and gave it her all. I'm proud of her for trying, and for seeing it to the end. I think the only reason she tried out was because her friends Joanie and Tiffany did. They both made the team.
We are dealing now, with the evolution of friendships. Her friendship with Joanie is going through major changes, and they are drifting farther and farther apart. They have been best friends since the 2nd grade, so it is understandibly a difficult time for Blaine. It is gut wrenching to witness and my motherly words of understanding do not lessen the hurt she feels. To see Blaine engage in almost desperate acts to maintain her status as "Joanie's best friend" is painful. You see, there is a new girl in the picture. Tiffany arrived on the scene towrds the end of the last school year. Blaine and Joanie both took a liking to and included her. Over the summer while Blaine has been busy with drama and Rock Camp, Joanie and Tiffany have become closer. Now it seems that Blaine and Tiffany have changed roles. Blaine is no longer Joanie's main friend, she is on the periphery and they sometimes exclude her. It is devestating to her. And it is devestating to witness. I know her pain. I felt it too as a girl. But that doesn't matter. In her eyes, I will never understand. Hubs doens't see what the big deal is...get over it, move on, make new friends. He has no understanding of the depth of importance friendships are to girls at this age. Blaine is, unkowingly, already finding the remedy. She doesn't have any classes in common with Joanie or Tiffany, so she is forced to talk to other people. She is making new friends. I know it will be a bumpy road, and I know this difficult time will pass, but not without more tears. Hers and mine.
I thought it would be more welcome than this. I really thought I couldn't wait for school to start, to have some alone time. I was wrong. I'm kinda sad about it. I know I complained, but it was really nice having Blaine around this summer. I've watched her grow so much and evolve over the past few months, that I'm really starting to like her. Not just love my daughter, but to really LIKE her.
The start of the school year comes with the usual trappings. I wrote of my woes about shopping for clothes and the distain I felt for doing it. But now I know why I hated it so much. Sizes are arbitrary. They have NO RELEVENT MEANING WHATSOEVER. I think the fashion industry does this on purpose to keep people shopping, to make it a never ending saga. Of all the items of clothing purchased for Blaine this year, there is not one common size. We have everything from XS to XLG and we puchased pants in a myriad of sizes, from girls sizes 12 to 14, junior sizes 1 to 3/4, and even a skirt in little girls size 7/8. WTF?
Blaine tried out for the volleyball team. I didn't want to crush her hopes, but I knew she would be cut. Not much call for a 4'10" spiker. At try-outs, the other girls towered over her. But she was a trooper, she stuck it out and gave it her all. I'm proud of her for trying, and for seeing it to the end. I think the only reason she tried out was because her friends Joanie and Tiffany did. They both made the team.
We are dealing now, with the evolution of friendships. Her friendship with Joanie is going through major changes, and they are drifting farther and farther apart. They have been best friends since the 2nd grade, so it is understandibly a difficult time for Blaine. It is gut wrenching to witness and my motherly words of understanding do not lessen the hurt she feels. To see Blaine engage in almost desperate acts to maintain her status as "Joanie's best friend" is painful. You see, there is a new girl in the picture. Tiffany arrived on the scene towrds the end of the last school year. Blaine and Joanie both took a liking to and included her. Over the summer while Blaine has been busy with drama and Rock Camp, Joanie and Tiffany have become closer. Now it seems that Blaine and Tiffany have changed roles. Blaine is no longer Joanie's main friend, she is on the periphery and they sometimes exclude her. It is devestating to her. And it is devestating to witness. I know her pain. I felt it too as a girl. But that doesn't matter. In her eyes, I will never understand. Hubs doens't see what the big deal is...get over it, move on, make new friends. He has no understanding of the depth of importance friendships are to girls at this age. Blaine is, unkowingly, already finding the remedy. She doesn't have any classes in common with Joanie or Tiffany, so she is forced to talk to other people. She is making new friends. I know it will be a bumpy road, and I know this difficult time will pass, but not without more tears. Hers and mine.
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